The 5 daily remembrances. This is my daily mantra:
1. I am of the nature to grow old, I cannot escape growing old.
2. I am of the nature to have ill health, I cannot escape having ill health.
3. I am of the nature to die, I cannot escape death.
4. All that is dear to me and everyone I love is subject to change, there's no way I can escape being separated from them.
5. All of my thoughts, my speech, my words, my actions are my continuation.
Everything will continue, just like this language I use to speak right now is a continuation from generations before us, just like this human culture and humanity we live in now is also a continuation of countless generations before us.
Yesterday the sky was blue and beautiful, just like any other day. I sat and breathed together with Ngang Ngang inside the vet room since the morning. She rested on my lap for hours, in pain, semi-conscious.
3.30 pm she was passing away, breathed her last breath on my lap. For hours we breathed the same air, hearing the same sounds, existing in the same space, and suddenly she stopped breathing the same air, stopped hearing the same sound, stopped existing.
Ngang Ngang will continue to live inside everyone she touched. Inside me, Samudra, Tasha, all the kids in the complex, inside the people who like her, inside everyone that got annoyed by her, even inside her killer. We all are her continuation. She will continue, in our every breath, in the blue sky, in all the plants of Kebun Meditasi, in every single blade of grass, in every single fruit & vegetable produced there.
Now rest in peace, rest in love, my teacher.
